Paige started today with her new dayhome. I was up all night being anxious for her......and myself. I think she doesn't care, but it's hard for me to leave her with a new stranger, and accept the fact that an other person has to parent my child all day. I am thankful that I only have to work part time, so I can spent most days with her. It is nice to that a large portion of my shifts fall on weekends, so her daddy gets plenty of one-on-one time too.

I am just feeling particularly anxious lately. So many things have been happening. I have a good friend going through some difficult times right now, and I am having a hard time finding the right balance between being supportive and carrying her burdens. I'd really like to see her mature - and develop the ability (and freedom) to ask for help when she needs it, and also SAY when she does not. Tell me to back off - or come closer. I would like a more open line of communication that is not just filled with dialogue that she thinks I "want to hear". It is frustrating to me because I see family totally intruding in her life, and it is REALLY upsetting her. She wouldn't admit it, nor would she tell them to back off - but I KNOW it is getting to her. Why can't they just step back and let her. Yes, LET HER. Maybe they are enabling her to fail because they are not giving her the chance to try on hew own. I am sad for her. I wish I could help her more, but help her to grow and mature at the same time.